Humble Pie

In an effort to be less bitter about being alone.. and stop relying on fate or god to jump in and deliver me a man worth wasting time on, I joined a dating site. Now, for me, this is the epitome of karma kicking my ass whilst sticking its tongue out at me saying, "i told you so" in a 5 year old voice. I was very against these dating sites at any age younger than 30 because, as I used to say, you still have time, what's the rush?

Well my friends, I am eating my words on top of a large slice of humble pie. I've come to the realization that the good ole college days of meeting guys at bars and exchanging phone numbers, along with pleasantries does not happen at this age anymore. ahh 24 not quite a college student, definitely not a full grown adult, however.. I am at the age where I know what works for me and what doesn't. Exchanging phone numbers, small talk and trying to justify publicly making out at a bar..does not work out these days. So I thought I'd give this whole dating site a shot. So far so good, but hey it's only day 3, plenty of time to screw it up.

I've received tons of messages, been asked out, chatted and selectively replied to a few men. What I do know thus far is that, this online dating thing is quite the ego boost. Also, I can rate men publicly and not be judged for it. (finally.)

My issue though, aaah yes I have an issue; is that I don't know how to sell myself. I find the whole thing to be narcissistic and fake. I know that the profile is like the first impression and mine is pretty much like meeting me after 3 tequila shots; short sentences, blatantly honest, opinionated and unapologetic and not at my full potential.

So.. I need help. I just can't find it in me to write something worth reading. I question every sentence by asking myself, what kind of person would that attract? I'm not left with much. Basically the part where your supposed to sell yourself has, "I'm complicated but laid back. I'm also a contradiction." that was the best I could come up with.

I've come to the conclusion that you cannot escape games in dating, not even virtually. If I'm too mushy I'll attract the wimps, if I'm to cheerful I might get a hippie, too analytic I'll get the nerds. I just can't win.

So I'm asking you, YES YOU, to drop a line about me.. help me out. What do you think about me, that is true..worth putting up there. Hey if it all works out, and I get married on rainbows and unicorns..then I'll thank you at my wedding. If not, no hard feelings.